How are they related. Oh they are. It’s a progression of my response.
So in this last week, I have been given several new tasks / added to new teams. I feel honored that they want me to learn more and take on more. The thing is I’m not sure how it’s going to happen. When am I going to have time for this? I already keep pretty busy. Am I going to be taking on these outside of normal hours? Am I allowed to step down from other things if I feel overwhelmed? (Not sure where that stands with me being an intern.)
The office tasks, mixed with being in class all the which doesn’t allow for much time to get office tasks done, reading/homework, 2 part time jobs, and trying to invest in friendships & continue having conversations that allow for faith to come up lend to me feeling extremely overwhelmed and anxious. My anxiety likes to manifest in different ways. Last night it was restless sleep. It can be vocalizing doubts. Feeling like it’s impossible. Yep, that’s where I’m at currently.
Since I can’t think of a way to do it all, I’ve decided to fast and enter into prayer/worship. I’m planning to continue until I get an answer or a prompting to respond in a certain way. Pray that I’m able to find some sort of resolution and/or God supernaturally grows my capacity to do all of this and my time.